I Hide

All that I am and all that I do
Is riddled with pure destruction,
Laced with toxic cyanide;
Never to be touched by mortal hands.

Can you buy a simple soul from me?
No, what I know is not for sale,
And even in your dreams
You could never see anything so pure.

Always saying things like
No, never, broken, so damaged;
Eternal, forever, always, so permanent,
And nothing can ever repair it.

You've stolen such things from me
That cannot be spoken of,
And yet I still must go on knowing
The true source of all this despair…

My entire world is dying all around me,
And all I can do is watch the embers burn;
White hot, like the deadly pure magic
Which I am no longer to use.

Addicted to you and all of your charm
Not because of who you are
Or because you treat me well,
But because you cause me pain.

I've always been in love with pain,
Ashen cinders burning to a black death
Always wanting, but never feeling more;
At least I can feel you now…

You're the only one in all the world
Who has the power to make me feel
Anything at all, just as long as it's something
More than the nothing; the emptiness I hide.