Poison and Lace

I have simply had enough.

No more lying,
No more games,
And please,
No more yelling.

I can't take the screaming,
Blistering my ears,
Even if you were with me,
For all of these years.

One day, I will be avenged,
And I'll take you with me,
Never did I promise,
I'd be your company.

You can't see what's inside me,
Dwelling deep within my heart,
Lies only the written word,
And the sake of all my art.

People like you won't understand,
And you never will,
The way you make me,
Do nothing but your will.

I'm so down,
Want to drown,
Always frown,
I don't know how to smile.

It's your fault,
One day it will finally be said,
The day they find me,
Drowning in my own blood, dead.

Just when I cannot take it,
Can't take anymore pain,
Stand the abuse any longer,
The agony will never wane.

If I could I'd seal my soul away,
Cast shadows into flame,
Every time you are miserable,
I shoulder the blame.

And why must it be like this?
Was it wrong just to want to live?
Am I nothing but a doll?
One that you control?

No!

Thinking you're the victim here,
That's not true, it's just a lie,
You tell yourself what you want,
You're the reason I want to die.

And after this day passes,
I'll never have to feel anything,
Except the scraping of the blade,
And the occasional sting.

It hurts so much less,
Than all of the emotional scars,
It's no wonder every night,
I always look up to the stars.

I only want it to stop,
The blistering, blinding pain,
This sorrow that has no end,
No wonder I'm insane.

I can't be the one to free you,
When I am imprisoned too,
You've given me an impossible task,
But I'll do it…

Or die.

I have to get away from here…