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I hate being a prisoner in my own body,
I hate feeling like I'm not good enough,
I'll never be good enough for you,
And if I keep waiting I'll lose my mind.
Instead of looking at what I'm not,
I'm going to make myself what I can be,
Maybe I can't be what I want to be,
But I can try to come as close as I can.
I'm so tired of feeling like I have to hide,
People always show each other pictures,
The way they look doesn't matter,
But they're pretty… and skinny… and glamorous.
Me? I feel like nothing most of the time,
I want to be young and thin and pretty,
To look like everyone else does,
I feel so bad being the way I am all the time.
I don't want to be something I'm not,
That's just the thing, this is not the real me,
I want to be the one I am inside,
What I'm meant to be is not what I am.
And most of the time I feel so hollow,
I need to be able to hide behind the pain,
Like I'm leaning over the edge, itching to jump,
Until the one day when it finally feels right.
I hate feeling like I'm not good enough,
I'll never be good enough for you,
And if I keep waiting I'll lose my mind.
Instead of looking at what I'm not,
I'm going to make myself what I can be,
Maybe I can't be what I want to be,
But I can try to come as close as I can.
I'm so tired of feeling like I have to hide,
People always show each other pictures,
The way they look doesn't matter,
But they're pretty… and skinny… and glamorous.
Me? I feel like nothing most of the time,
I want to be young and thin and pretty,
To look like everyone else does,
I feel so bad being the way I am all the time.
I don't want to be something I'm not,
That's just the thing, this is not the real me,
I want to be the one I am inside,
What I'm meant to be is not what I am.
And most of the time I feel so hollow,
I need to be able to hide behind the pain,
Like I'm leaning over the edge, itching to jump,
Until the one day when it finally feels right.
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I go through a lot of things in my life, but this is what I've struggled with the most I think.
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"I want to be the one I am inside,
What I'm meant to be is not what I am."
True words for many people and for me as well. I think my prison is something into my mind though. I mean, it's a sort of trick of the mind (because we could be what we think of not being able to).
What I'm meant to be is not what I am."
True words for many people and for me as well. I think my prison is something into my mind though. I mean, it's a sort of trick of the mind (because we could be what we think of not being able to).