You Own Me

Do I have a crush on you?
How can I be expected to answer that,
Such a blatant question,
I know it will never fall from your lips,
But I can’t help but hope.

Loving someone so similar to myself,
It will always be a mystery to me,
How did I get caught up in all this?
Now I’m questioning everything,
Even my own sanity.

I try to pretend that you are my friend,
And you are, but really it’s more than that,
Never able to say what I feel to you,
This is torture, it’s madness, it’s obsession,
How did I lose myself so fast?

I fell so far, and tried so hard to escape,
And now the only thing I can do,
Is wish for this twisted nightmare to end,
I cannot believe this is happening to me,
I never thought I’d be affected by it.

You’re too sweet for your own good,
Do I really feel this way for you?
Why does life always do this to me?
You are the only good thing,
That has happened to me in a very long time.

And why do I feel like I know you?
It’s like we met lifetimes before now,
Only to be forced apart by this pointlessness,
I will never get anywhere with you,
I am only kidding myself about it.

Still, I cannot help but to want you,
Even if it’s the wrongest thing I’ve even done,
I don’t regret it, even if I feel ashamed,
You own me, and you don’t even know it,
The worst part is, I can never tell you.